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total win! [11 Jan 2008|10:58pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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questions about the NH primary results [10 Jan 2008|11:39pm]
There are many questions raised regarding the NH primary counts. Sources (1, 2, 3 and 4) have claimed voting fraud.

Even Dennis Kucinich, who comes closest to embodying and protecting our original Constitution, has requested NH for a recount.

Very interesting how elections are run in this country.
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this Christmas [26 Dec 2007|01:04pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

This was the first Christmas that I got to spend with Josh and his family in Keene. It was definitely a nice change. I got more presents than I was expecting.
I also got to help Josh's mom bake crescent rolls and make holiday cookies. Some of them are pictured below, with an enhancement of my favorite gingerbread man

Hope everyone enjoyed the holidays!

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there is a light at the end of every tunnel [26 Apr 2007|11:53pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Today was very eventful. I was a wreck at my presentation for the Honors Colloquium but that's ok because what happened later made up for it. Right after my craptacular presentation, I had to present my final work for Architecture Studio II and we actually had visiting critics. One of them happened to be Chad. Chad!!! He was the only one who was willing to help me in those awful classes with Peter Temple. I haven't seen this guy in over two years. I couldn't believe he was back especially since he graduated last year I've heard. He told me that he saw Josh and I in Amherst a few weeks ago. I asked him if he lived there now and he said that he is a first year grad student at UMass. I shouldn't be surprised. He has such a strong potential that he could get into Harvard if he wanted to but he probably doesn't want to deal with a bunch of snobs. I told him which grad school I plan on attending and he said that they have a good architecture program and said it was "interesting" whatever that meant.
Speaking of, I'll be meeting with the department chair on May 31st to discuss the possibility of advanced standing. I hope he'll waive at least two classes because that would mean I can graduate sooner and have less loans. We'll see.

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funny conversation [18 Apr 2007|11:34pm]
[ mood | amused ]

me: Hey I saw Nina today
My chick friend who misheard me: You saw Nemo? I know it's rainy outside but I don't think you'll find Nemo out there
me: Nemo? No, I said Nina! Whoa I have to be tripping balls to see Nemo!
my chick friend: hahaha I love you girl!

suck ass fire alarm and conference [02 Apr 2007|05:49pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Saturday was pretty eventful. For one, the damn fire alarm went off at 3:30AM. Normally I would not care but I had to get up in less than four hours to get ready to present in my school's Academic Excellence Conference. I had to option of waiting inside the great hall of the dorm across where I live but I opted to stay outside because if this happened to me in Buffalo, it would be ten times worse so I might as well get used to it now.
I decided to get up at 7AM after waiting out there in the cold for half an hour. Grad school is not going to go easy on me so a lack of sleep is also part of preparing for what will await me this fall. I pick up my folder with my luncheon tickets and stuff a quarter after 8AM and decided to work on my model for architecture studio til 12:45PM where I met Josh, Christine and Laura for lunch. Then after that I presented and there were a lot more people who showed up than I expected.
Among those who came was my research advisor Dr. Menees which surprised me because she's always busy - she's the department chair and has family to take care of. My awesome physics teacher and lab teacher from last semester also stopped by and they expressed the most interest in my research that it actually made me laugh as bad as that may sound. It was the president of our school who made me nervous because I did not want to look like a retard or dork in front of her. She stayed there talking to me for like twenty minutes. She's a nice lady. All in all the presentation flew by quick and I was glad to be a part of it.

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[05 Feb 2007|11:38pm]
This is the best video ever. I need a bunny like that.

On other news, I found out there will be an architecture gallery/exhibit in Syracuse University on Friday March 9 and I would kill to be there.
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it's building up already [23 Jan 2007|11:27pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

I'm in my second week of classes already and I have to design a model (cube) of a loft for any artist of my choosing for my Architecture Studio II class by this Thursday and an exam for Architecture History II this Monday. I also have to analyze all the data I gathered from my surveys and Mental Rotation Tests from last semester so that I can present in Nashua, NH on February 24th. It was stupid of me to sign up for it but once I'm done, I'll be done.
I can't wait for this semester to be over.

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last semester is about to begin [15 Jan 2007|11:39pm]
Have you ever wanted something so bad that you can't stop thinking about it? Well I think I've reached that point. I don't know what has gotten into me but ever since I've had that interview with Mark Linder, I've been wondering whether he would accept me or not. There are indications that the interview went well but I really don't know how I compare to all the other applicants. One of my friends in NY asked me what I'd do if I didn't get in. I told him that I would be feel pretty shitty and then feel pissed off afterwards because of all the work I put in just to apply. I really can't imagine what kind of crappy ass job I'd get with a BA in psyc. Yeah it may pay well above what both my parents have ever made combined but I have to be happy with that job, whatever that will be. Maybe I want to get into Syracuse badly because I've never had to work that hard to apply for something I want before. Maybe it's because grad school isn't anywhere near as lame as the undergraduate level. I guess I'll know about my status in the second or third week of March. It's not coming fast enough.
On other news, it's good to be back in NH. It'll be my last semester here and the same goes for Josh, Christine, Liz, Rachel and Laura. One of my other friends e-mailed me and she said that she's excited and scared at the same time to graduate. She said she's excited to get her Master's and yet she wonders where she'll be working and living completely on her own. I wish I can say I'll be getting my Master's by the end of this spring but I'll get there some day. I'm just so proud of all my friends for making it this far and I'll probably cry like a damn emo kid at our graduation.
Anyway tomorrow will be my first day of classes. It'll begin with the two hour long Architectural Studio II class followed by Cognitive Processes. A long day awaits.
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Syracuse University interview [06 Jan 2007|03:47pm]
I dropped off Josh at the Penn Station today cuz he had to go back to NH (I'll be leaving next week for my last semester at KSC, booyah!). Then I quickly had lunch and then I took the train to meet Professor Mark Linder, the department chair for the graduate architecture program at Syracuse University. It turned out that I was 40 minutes early. I did have trouble finding the location of the address cuz the streets were in no particular order, just like every other part of downtown Manhattan. I did happen to ask the right person and she told me where it was exactly and it wasn't too far from the station. I finally get there and there was one other person waiting for the interview as well. Whoever was supposed to have their interiew at 2PM never made it so Mr. Linder had me replace that person. I asked him every question I wrote down (which was about seven I think) and that took up the twenty minutes I was scheduled for. It was good overall except for me accidentally dropping a booklet I was given on my way out.
I think the most surprising part of the interview was that he said not many McNair Scholars get accepted because not many of them apply. I guess I'll be one of the few that do. If I get rejected, I guess I'll have to get a real job, save up money/pay off loans, and reapply again. I really want to get into their program (or any architecture grad school program) because the design studios are very cooperative and although everyone thinks differently, they learn from these differences in such a way that they will help each other out. That was definitely one thing that KSC's architecture program needs. I'll be taking another studio class next semester so we'll see how that goes. I'll also be waiting... and waiting... to hear back from all the schools I've applied to about my admission status. Oh joy!
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damn it [26 Dec 2006|05:17pm]
It's not even really winter (sans snow) and I have a cold sore right on my freakin lip. Usually it's around your lip but this one happens to be on the right side of my lower lip. Good thing I have a doctor's appointment this Thursday but I really don't know if he does his job right. It took me forever to get a hold of his office due to the idiot receptionists but I have an appointment now so that is taken care of.
On the more brighter side, Josh will be coming down to NYC this Saturday yay! Then we can go to the Samsung store in Columbus Circle, visit the Guitar Center and definitely Trader Joe's, ohh yeah!
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a moment of "clarity" [14 Dec 2006|12:06am]
[ mood | tired ]

This semester went by really quick. For the first time I didn't want the semester to end so soon because I had to get all my graduate school materials together and mail them all out at once. RPI took forever to reply to my messages about their fee waiver for McNair scholars but I guess it's better late than never. I'm finally done with all that stuff though. Next semester will be just as hectic even though I won't be applying to grad schools; I'll be instead working on Plan B which is finding possible jobs with a Psyc degree in case I don't get accepted to any of the schools I applied to. I'll also have to rush to analyze all my data collected for my Honors Research project so that I can present in a conference in Nashua, NH this coming February. Ah, the life of a poor, somewhat accomplished, college girl.
Now that this semester is over, I literally have nothing to do. I even thought about giving my LJ another layout. I don't know what theme though. I was thinking Hanzel und Gretyl but they're already my Myspace profile theme so something else might be better for my LJ. Josh and I rented "Clerks II" and watched it tonight. It was hilarious, especially with Jay in it.
I know this is kind of random but I'm just going to type my whole stream of consciousness in this entry as cliche as that may sound. I've realized that some of my old friends have changed and don't seem to care about me as much anymore. I guess that's a part of life. People are inevitably going to change and change isn't always good. I did however meet new awesome people and these are the same people that I would want at my wedding if I should get married one day. Maybe I'll even consider two of them to be my brides maids. One of them was there for me since we met two years ago and she was the only one on campus who seemed to care when I got really sick (had the flu for the first time) and got me a "Get Well" card. She wrote that if Josh couldn't take care of me then she would. She said that she'll get me anything, even weed, hahaha. I love her sense of humor. What really sucks is that we only have one semester together before we graduate and head off in different directions. One of them wants to be a lawyer (and she'd make a damn good one too), one wants to be a counseling psychologist, and the other a scientist working with bacteria-phage to hopefully find a cure for cancer. We all live in different parts on the East Coast but at least we all have cell phones and if anything should ever happen with our phones, we have e-mail too. Hopefully we'll all stay in touch after graduation. I'm getting upset just thinking about this so I'll write about something else. I was even lucky enough to meet nice faculty members who were willing to write me strong letters of recommendation for grad schools and they all expressed concern when I walked into the classroom with gauze over my second-degree burned right hand after that cursed day it happened. I guess if I was male they wouldn't have asked because the guy next to me in my physics class had a cast over his left arm another day and no one asked what was wrong. Who knows.
Christmas. Christmas is no longer a holiday I enjoy. In fact, I stopped liking Christmas quite a few years back. Everyone seems so damn materialistic and a holiday such as that only persuades people to buy more crap in an attempt to make people like them better or plainly just show off their wealth (especially those people with all those crazy lighted displays outside their big fat mansion). The only thing I look forward to during this holiday is making crescent rolls. For some reason I really, really enjoy making them. I may even ask Josh's mom for the recipe so I can bake at home or maybe even at Chris's if he trusts me operating the oven haha.

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[01 Nov 2006|12:22pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Yesterday I dressed up as a fallen angel (all in black, with makeup and Vas's hairdo of course) for Halloween. Liz dressed up as the Corpse Bride and it looked really good too. I think the best costume I've seen yesterday was the guy dressed up as Batman. His costume really looked like the actual character, not like the flimsy Wal-Mart shit they call costumes. I wanted to go trick or treating but then second-thought it because I don't really need all that candy. The last thing I need is seeing the dentist because my insurance only works in New York and I still have that ridiculous medical bill to pay when I went to the ER on Oct. 16th for second degree burns. I owe them $292 which may not sound bad compared to what other people got billed for BUT all they literally did was put antibiotic cream on my hand and bandage it. $292 for that is freakin ridiculous. My skin is healing now which is great but it's still peeling here and there.
Things academically are hectic. I hardly have time to work on my portfolio for grad school and one of the schools I'm applying to has always been male-dominated so I know if I end up going there, I'm going to get treated like crap because I'm female. I'm just going to have to fight my way to get that Master of Architecture degree. Physics is still a pain in the ass with never ending homework to do; the Honors Seminar is still a waste of time because the teacher doesn't even know what's going on and made everyone in the class miss the first deadline for undergraduate research funding. Psychology of Prejudice still is my favorite class even if it has April in it. Logical Argumentation is eh-ok. It could be better if everyone in there did the actual homework before coming to class.
Two of the girls I live with are freakin pigs. They leave huge chunks of food here and there. Then they have to make the biggest deal out of the tiniest things because they're drama whores who are mentally still in 5th grade. One of them is the stereotypical religious freak who seriously believes she's perfect and never does anything wrong but we all know it's just her huge ego talking. The bright side is I have a good chance of moving with Liz next semester, whoohoo! I'll conclude my entry with an awesome quote:

"I distrust those people who know so well what God wants them to do, because I notice it always coincides with their own desires."
- Susan B. Anthony

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21st birfday! [13 Aug 2006|11:19pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I typed a nice long entry and then my laptop had to crash. Thank you stupid Windows stop error message. Anyway I hit the big 2-1 on Aug. 11th and what a wonderful night that was. I basically went to Coney Island with my boyfriend and my friends. On the way to Coney Island, we played Monopoly on Moe's Treo cell phone and we had sit in the train car with a man who kept whistling in this high-pitched tone. Maybe he thought he was some kind of dolphin? Whatever the case, it was annoying. Anyway when we finally got there, we went on a swinging ferris wheel cabin, drove go-karts in two different tracks, spent over $30 in quarters trying to win a Game Boy Advance from one of the arcade machines, and went on a crappy Pirate Ship ride (the ones that swing back and forth). Poor Josh got sick from it.
Then we met up with Margarita to have dinner at Zenith where I had the best vegan chicken. Everyone who tried a piece said it actually did taste like chicken. Unfortunately Zenith didn't serve alcohol anymore so we went to Pigalle. The atmosphere there was much better. One of the waiters there sang me "Happy Birthday" and gave me a free shot of Peach Schwappes heh. I ordered a White Russian but didn't finish it because the burning in my throat was getting to me so I drank Josh's Cape Codder instead :D We probably sat there for two hours just yapping away. After that we wandered around Times Square and witnessed two people getting arrested. That was pretty much my night. Oh yeah my gifts were:
- a plush Yoshi that actually looks like Yoshi from Josh :)
- a beautiful, hand-made pot holder in the shape of a butterfly from Josh's mom
- a V for Vendetta DVD from Suzanne
- a talking Jack Sparrow doll from Moe
- $50 from Chris and
- $100 from my mom
We actually didn't think about getting a birthday cake then so we had one yesterday (Thanks again Chris). It was an awesome Cookies & Cream ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins. It was my first birthday cake in 13 years :)

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icons galore (part 2) [28 Jul 2006|04:42pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

The McNair program has officially ended so now I'm free! Yesterday I had to attend a 7 hour long Symposium (and had to present too) and I gave my mentor the gourmet chocolate I bought from Portsmouth, NH with Alice. She just unwrapped it in front of me and said she loves it :D At 7PM, we had dinner at the Alumni Center. My mentor showed up with something gift-wrapped for me even though I wasn't expecting anything from her. She told me what was inside it whether or not I wanted to know prior to unwrapping it. She said that it is a book of her favorite architect's work and I thought that was nice of her. Before she departed I told her I originally wanted to buy her the Sigmund Freud bobblehead but I couldn't because that was way out in Northampton, MA. She said that she already has one heh.
Anyway here's another icon batch I've made. It features:

[5] Johnny Depp (2 Sleepy Hollow, 3 PotC)
[3] V for Vendetta
[9] Devil May Cry series (5 Vergil, 2 Dante, 1 Dante x Vergil, 1 Jester)
[1] The Sins of Thy Beloved
[2] Nightmare Before Christmas

Credit if taking and remember no hotlinking! Enjoy :)

I see a devil inside you has awakened...Collapse )

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thank you all [20 Jul 2006|08:43pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I'd like to thank everyone who has been there for me these past few weeks. I've been going through a lot in my life, especially with the 180 degree shift of interest in potential grad schools.
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[01 Jul 2006|09:29pm]
fuck everything and everyone.

I'd rather be anywhere but here [23 Jun 2006|08:15pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

I honestly don't know if I want to go to grad school. It seems like whenever I commit myself to something academically, it always drives me to such frustration that I won't think it's worth sticking to. I've stuck with Architecture for two years and began to hate it; now I'm almost graduating with a BA in Psyc and although I cannot wait til graduation next year, I'm skeptical about continuing on to obtain a Ph.D. or even a Master's in Psyc.
What I really enjoy doing is art but of course, all careers in art are unstable. I know every job despite what field you're in is unstable but the whole design aspect is probably the least out of all. Not everyone will like your work so there's no solid chance of you getting hired.
If I ever do find the motivation and courage to apply to APA-accredited grad school programs prior to my graduation, I have a feeling I'll have to relocate to a different part of the country so I'll have to leave my friends... again. I'm kind of getting sick of the whole packing up, moving, unpacking and repeating that same cycle all over again.
I feel like I'm in a dead end trap and that there's no way out of it.

one of the cutest cats ever [12 Jun 2006|06:37pm]
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:O I actually won something in my life [19 May 2006|11:37pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Guess what landed in my inbox today? This following e-mail:

Congratulations you have won a four pack of tickets to Six Flags Magic Mountain to experience Tatsu, their newest roller coaster.

Date: Friday, May 26th
Time: 7am (Event prior to park opening)
Place: 6 Flags Magic Mountain, 26101 Magic Mountain Parkway, Valencia, CA 91355
Parking: Prior to 9am, parking is free, after 9am parking is $15

What you need to do:
1: Confirm that you and 3 guests will be coming to the event.
2: Arrive at the park at between 7-715am for check in at the main gate. There will be a table set up for winners and you must bring ID.

You and your guests will experience Tatsu before the park opens and have the opportunity to enjoy the park for the rest of the day.

Congratulations again.

NBC4 TV and Six Flags Magic Mountain

Too bad it's for the Six Flags in CA. If it was for the one in NJ, I'd definitely go. I guess there's always a next time, heh. I'm still stoked about winning something for once :D

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